My typical anxiety dream for my entire adult life has been like this:
I find myself at the University of North Texas (where I actually DID do my graduate work). The buildings are huge, and I realize I haven't been to my classes. I keep trying to find the office that will help me find my schedule. I give up and just go looking for my class -- which I don't know WHAT it is, or where. Or when. And if I do find it? My teacher scolds me and I have no seat, and so on. And I usually wake up in a cold sweat. Nobody will help me. Nobody gives me directions. I try to talk and my voice gets softer and softer until there is no sound at all. Just air.
In the last two nights, they have been different. I have landed in odd places and situations (like last night, I was cast as the "everyman" in a play). But now I am being helped by people. I am finding my way! I am a bit nervous, but excited by trying new things. I ask for help -- I tell people, "Yes, I know. I don't know how to do this yet, but if you teach me .... if you SHOW me, I'll get it!" And then, I do. I figure it out. I succeed.
I find my way to the dressing room where there is a costume that fits perfectly. I get into character. I'm there on time. My co-actor is happy with me. He laughs. I laugh. I enjoy it.
This has NEVER happened.
I am So excited.